i got a lot of hate

So i grew up in a family of six. Me being the first. My father left when i was very young. Only 2 find out now that they made him leave, he was the kind that avoided fights for the childs sake. So my mom got involved and married my step dad, whom ive never liked very much and i hate my mom too for making me go through this, for 20 years shes been using me to make her marriage work. My aunt got hold of me bt unfortunately my dad is no more